Cant wait any longer

[Di Sandland]

Su, you have experienced my worst nightmare and I'm not surprised at how difficult it is. Its difficult enough here with Will away and Tom having just moved on (as he should at 22). I often look at them or think about them and wonder how I would cope with losing either of them To be honest the only thing that would keep me going would be the child (yes, they're my children no matter that they're grown up) that is left. And that, I suspect, is what keeps you going.

Just try to remember the memories you made with Rikki. I can't say anymore because any words are inadeqate.

xxxxx

[bustagasket]

ty hun, dont think i will ever accept or get over it. we have a very rough three months every year, where we get very tetchy and i get even more weepy. November 20th is his birthday, then Christmas, then he passed away February 19th.

People always say, oh you have two children and i always correct them, I have three, just because i can no longer hold him, it cant wipe out the fact that for 13 years and two months he was the centre of my world, of all our worlds, the boys included, we worked our lives around his, and if it meant i could have him back tomorrow, i would gladly give up my "free" life now and go back to my prisonlike life that was just the way it had to be because of his health, without a single look back.

He taught me so much, and it was a honour and a priviledge to be able to call myself his mum.

[Emerald]

Oh Su you are an absolute star and we love you

[kymbi]

Su, I'll say nothing but send you a virtual

[Lisa Quinn]

Thanks Su for a moment of clarity, I often whinge about my children taking me for granted , but never stop to think about the fact that I completely take them for granted and how lucky I am .

LOL
Lisa xx

[bustagasket]

Thanks Su for a moment of clarity, I often whinge about my children taking me for granted , but never stop to think about the fact that I completely take them for granted and how lucky I am .

LOL
Lisa xx

Oh trust me i still complain that they take me for granted, but thats part of being a parent lol

[Jayne]

J x

[bustagasket]

thanks for all the support cookies, wasnt quite meant to be that kind of thread but i really appreciate it

[Petal]

I can't say any more than give you a big and a from me too.

[bustagasket]

aww ty hun